Well, ladies, this is the first day that blogging feels like a chore. And I think it's because this process has been slow moving for me. I don't want to be the blogger that bitches and moans every night about her back or whatever. I realize that any personal journey worth taking is going to be slow moving, but I'm really looking at it through a microscope by blogging and that can be a little challenging. I don't ever want to come off as ungrateful or unaware that things could always be worse. I mean, I know that. I do. And, yes, sometimes I lose sight of that, but I do know that my life, though it's not what I want it to be right now, it's good. And you girls are making it better!
Today was an okay food day. Not great. I tried a new style of my miracle noodles (the rigatoni) and they were disgusting!!! I like the noodles, but the thicker ones have the texture of gristle and I want to vomit just thinking about them! Today I also felt my blood sugar gettin' all kinds of crazy on me. I recognize that feeling from doing the South Beach diet a few times. Not fun! I know I'm not hungry, but yet I want to eat. Sometimes it emotional and sometimes it a blood sugar thing and I think I'm learning the difference, so I guess that's good.
I sent the email I wrote yesterday to the (I have no idea what his tittle is) guy at LaGuardia Community College regarding their interpretation program. Of course I want a response right away and of course I don't get one. It seems like every time I send an email inquiry to someone, I don't get a response and then I get all pissed off and resentful. I could call, but oh NO! Truth be told, I can be painfully shy. Hopefully I'll hear something by the end of the week.
I'm watching "The Biggest Loser". It's getting kinda boring, but some of the contestants still inspire the heck out of me! One girl lost over a 100lbs before she was even cast on the show and she has a kicks ass attitude! I don't know if I could be as positive as she is if I weighed 400 plus pounds. Holy crap!
My cats are really fat. Is it weird that I'm fat and my cats are fat?
For someone who didn't feel like writing, I sure went on and on!
For tomorrow
Practice sign language for 30 minutes.
Clean my bathroom no matter how much my back is saying no!
Possibly go to my first WW meeting. I have a phobia of joining AGAIN. Seriously, I think I've joined every year since 2002-ish, not to mention the times I joined in college.
Night-Night
Don't worry about joining again, this is at least my fourth or fifth time, it's totally cool, because this time it's the last time I quit. ;)
ReplyDeleteIt's also okay to feel less than awesome and I feel down. Pick one thing, focus on it, become successful, make it a routine, then move on. And maybe think of gristle noodles everytime you want to snack for no reason, I know i will! I might even try them, so I get the full experience! Keep on truckin sister, tomorrow is a new and better day!!
You know, thinking about the noodles might actually work!
ReplyDeleteI've had a not feeling like blogging night too. Try flipping through your music to see if anything inspires you.
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