Today I helped an old lady get through the snow and on to her bus. She thanked me and told me that I am an angel. It felt good to do something nice for someone and it was a reminder that at my core I am not a heinous, eye rolling, bitch who talks under her breath because she never has anything nice to say. My job has brought nothing but the worst out in me. I didn't know it was possible for me to be so unpleasant. Or to look so homeless. I haven't waxed my brows since November. My face doesn't deserve this kind of treatment. It's bad enough that it has to deal with my lazy eye and the sun spots! What's wrong with me?! I need to become a crossing guard.
I've been doing pretty well with food, but today I felt hungry all afternoon and evening. I can tell I'm PMS-ing because my hormones are starving and they won't shut up! I tracked my food and cooked chicken with panko bread crumbs, which I had never done before. It was soooo good and I now have to reserve 3 points for them every time I eat chicken!
I feel boring today. Also, I want a horse.
Tomorrow
I will track my food and blah blah blah
I will try to be less pissy at work and blah blah blah
I will remember to stretch my back more because it is so stiff and blah blah blah
My 5's
Grateful that "blah blah blah" is such significant part of my vernacular. I mean, it cuts down on a lot of thinking and writing, etc. And, really, everyone knows what you mean when you say blah blah
Grateful I got to sleep in this morning! I will never be a morning person. It will always be torture for me to have to wake up before 9.
Grateful for my Mom
Grateful that I can find humor is almost everything
Grateful that I am a creative person even if it seriously biting me in fucking ass right now!
Night-Night
you're too pretty and funny to be a crossing guard. :)
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ReplyDeleteJenna I seriously thought of you today after my meeting. It even inspired me to start writing my second follow through newsletter. I'm sure you will read my blog but I was meditating on the question "What do I really want?" I thought of everything and then I started to think that maybe I was narrowing myself and I should think about what makes me feel really happy. What does the best life look like for me. Anyway, I thought of you and I was thinking that you should mediate on that too and start writing it out or drawing it or doing something creative with it. You are a true inspiration to me. I think you're funny and playful and so easy to talk to. This job is just hint of what your life and legacy will be. Maybe these people needed someone like you. Anyway, be prepared because the tide is going to turn. Love yoU!
ReplyDeleteAww. Thank you, Talula! Love you, too! I will take your advise. I'd like to meditate regularly, but I'm no very disciplined. I used to do it in the mornings, kinda, but when winter hit I traded meditating for hitting the snooze button. xo
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